A few weeks ago when I was describing my suicidal thoughts to my Dr and counsellor, I used some phrases that others have mentioned here.
My thoughts of death have never been violent or step by step plans. I feel like I become just so overwhelmed with physical emotion and mental frustration that I need to release my soul from my body. I too have felt a deep peace and comfort at the thought of dying, but I often just go to sleep and hope I don''t wake up.
I will eventually end up thinking of my younger brother and could never harm myself as long as he is around, i just don't want to give him any reason to be sad or lonely or embarrassed where it concerns me.
It seems that sometimes it is the love or concern for a loved one that hinders a person from carrying out a suicide attempt.
However I feel concern and empathy for all those sufferers out there right now. Those who are crying into their pillows or staring blankly, empty inside, who are thinking of killing themselves. Those who may feel they do not have a loved one to live for. For you, I pray for your mind to find clarity and your soul to have enough self love to make it through another day xo
I too have been in that still moment where you pray for death.
IT CAN PASS.... IT DOES PASS.... and you can wake up one morning and feel not as hopeless. And then the next day you want to make yourself a cup of tea..... slowly each day becomes a little easier to endure. I no longer watch tragic news/Tv/Movies. Even watching some comedy shows on TV have helped my smile and laugh when nothing else could.
FIND a small JOY and focus on that
and know that you are never alone