Please don't judge me

Being part of a world where you feel that you are judged because you need to die is something that just completely overwhelms me.
The only place im not judged is this site and i was just wondering if any other users feel this way.
Wednesday

yes Wednesday, I have been there, too many times, and scared to admit it. Then when I did eventually admit it to someone very close, to get a response of "dont be so stupid".

Each one of us has our own torments, demons, monsters, so I cant tell you how to get away from these thoughts. Perhaps talking about it on here, or with your CMT.

I do know it is possible to reach a state where those thoughts are no longer prevalent. You just have to find your trigger for happiness instead of your triggers for depression. "JUST" she says. I know its very difficult to do that, and very easy to slip back again.

I truly hope your meds start to help you soon xx

That is probably the worst feeling in the world Wednesday and I've been there. Stay strong please xx

Yes Wednesday......I have felt that way. The worse comes from my family. I've never been particularly close to them and all they do is judge me. I jokingly refer to myself as the "black sheep" of the family....LOL

NO ONE has a right to judge others.....stay positive and stay here!

At times Misha the worse as come from my family too, especially one member who makes me feel like im the devil in disguise.
For some reason i've been asked out to lunch with a few of them after years of them never asking me. To be honest i just feel like telling them to stick their invitation where the sun don't shine.
Thanks for your support
Wednesday

I'm here too. Intermittently in the same state. We must find our fighting spirit...though goodness knows where mine has gone. Keep going day by day.

hi wednesday,

well sadly unless people have been in our position they tend to be unable to get their heads around what is going on for us.

my partner is very supportive, but i have other family members who seem to think comments like,"cheer up","what have you got to be so sad about" and "think of what your doing to everyone" are going to make me change... sod them i say. the people who matter won't judge, they will try to understand.

at least we have a place to share our real feelings with others, who know exactly what we're going through.

all the best

Aura

Hi, i do think that it is harder when family members judge you, these are the people who are supposed to love you unconditionaly. Maybe some of my family are just scared of me, scared of what to say to me, so all they are able to say is things like pull yourself together.
Aura you are so right when you say that the people who matter wont judge but will try to understand.But what scares me is that they never will be able to understand.
YingYang i promise you that you will find your fighting spirit again on this site
Both of you be strong.
Wednesday

Indeed unless you have been there is it probably impossible to understand. There is still a horrible stigma around mental health. "normies" are scared of us. I dont know why this should be when 1 in 4 will suffer at some point.